I ♥ [M] u h d H a z w a n !

10:55 PM Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Despite the ups and downs, we're still holding on right? :D

School-ed. Home-ed.
Cooked lunch/dinner with (L). Then went to HM to meet mummy. Homed and helped her unpack stuffs. Fell asleep at the sofa. Then mummy woke me up asking me to accompany her down. And now, im home and trying to get myself sleep.

Wohoooooo, uncle's lending me his phone soon! I loveeeeeeee. :D

I almost died.

Thanks for causing conflicts between me and mummy. Thanks for causing conflicts between my brother and mummy. Thanks for being sucha a busybody. Thanks for being sucha annoying. Thanks for making my mummy lose trust in us! May karma bless you soon cause you aren't any better than me either. Thank you!

7:31 PM Friday, April 23, 2010

I have always been telling others not to give up even myself. But I am so upset that I can't stop thinking of all the obstacles im facing now.I keep telling myself that i'll be able to pull through. And yes, I think I need a lot of patience. Im staying calm but just a few things that keeps bothering me. I feel so disappointed with someone. I bet, he have yet to learn more things and doesn't know how to appreciate. Today's lesson made me realize something. To learn to stand for what is needed. Even being insulted for times, I kept calm. I didn't even bother to stand up cause I am not a kind that argues much to an extent. But today, I learnt that even if I were to be insulted A to Z, all I got to do is show the real me. Prove who I really am. Okay, I feel so emo. But really, im feeling down now over some reasons. Im facing them hoping things would be fine and better in a while's time which I know it will. I hope im given the hope and strength to face all this. Amin.

I'm going out soon to meet (L) and NurSakinah! [: Will be meeting Yasmin tomorrow :D

Wheeeeeee, excited!
Tonight's mission is to get brother transfer me $ to my account! :D

2:17 AM Thursday, April 22, 2010

Im fcuking lethargic. Im lack of sleep. ):
School -> Lunch -> Home -> Vivo -> Bukit Batok -> Home

I only managed to sleep in the bus journey to Vivo and Bukit Batok. Awhile only. -.-

Tomorrow must go school :D No ciggies for me and (L).

Okay, nothing to update. I'll be busy this weekends. So, update when im free. :D

Muhd Hazwan, ilysm. Thank you for sacrificing your time.

5:52 AM Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I didn't sleep yesterday. Now, im texting (L) since he's on his way to work. I hope he enjoys his work. Anyway, happy working sweetheart. Take care.

Yesterday was like lepak a while only. Managed to cook sambal ayam! I passsssssssssed! Even mummy complimented me. Eheeeems, next nak blajar masak aper pulak ehhhh? :D Then slack at void deck just to spray (L)'s kude. Today both abit haywire, keep on smacking each other's forehead and biting for no reason. -.- Headed home, had mee kuah for supper. Surf net till now.

Okay, mendak.
School later.
Need to ask mummy for her ic, sign some documents and find my bankbook -.-

I don't know where the fcuk I place it!):

Enough, feels like watching movie awhile. Then get ready for school.

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyy, Happy Third Monthsary Muhd Hazwan. Ilysm.

9:03 PM Sunday, April 18, 2010

Hi, please don't assume that it was MY fault.

Cause everything was a misunderstanding.

You've got to get your facts right before anyhow rambling.

Thanks.
(Annoying already.)

Okay, im sick and tired living in this home. Mummy is startingg to be annoying. She blames me for no reason. And she said that she doesn't even have to give me my allowance for school cause school fees is a burden to her. Then, I don't have to eat uh? She even tell me to cook when there's nothing to eat. Tell me what to cook when there's nothing in the fridge at all? Fcukkkk. Kay skip.
(Adding on to the annoying level.)

Bottomline, im annoyed, irritated cause everything's on me for no reason.

Im back home early today cause from Sengkang, I went home straight alone leaving (L) behind cause he insisted on going to watch kude kepang with the rest and I was having some reasons. Soooooo, I was drenched in the rain. And when I get back home, it adds on to my anger due to some reasons. Irritating.
(Adding on to the annoying level again.)

Okay, so now, I don't know where the hell is (L) cause his phone batt died on us just now. Work training tomorrow. Dammnnnnnnnnnnn.
(Anooying level reach the maximum.)

Thanks to the PMS. =.=

Okay, im fcuking tired. Will update when I have the time.

11:11 AM Friday, April 16, 2010

Okay, im up quite early today.
Feels like updating here but don't know what to type.

Today's plan is to accompany the boy at night around 11 I think? to help with the spraying and designing of his kude. & off to Hougang Point for Prata sausage! Weekends will be a break time before work training begins for us next week. I'll be having training from Mon to Fri. Whereas (L)'s training is only Mon and Tues. =.= Kay whatever. Im feeling damn bored now. Everyone's either asleep or working. I wanna eat my breakfast @ Macz but too lazy to walk.

I feels so excited over some stuffs. Will update bout it.

And I hope the trip to Batam this holiday is confirmed cause im veryvery excited!

Dead bored. Dead bored. =.=
Mendaaaaaaakkkkkkkkk.

Anyway, bid farewell to my broadband cause I have to return my brother back tonight. Thanks to that bitch for causing this misery to me eh. And thanks for making my $300 from my first pay gone just like that. I'll fcuk you up down when I see you and make sure I get a return bitch. :D

Anddddddddddd, update bout that Sasuaaaaaaaay.
She's been making a fool and leaving msg to Sufi. She did replied to what (L) and me send via Sufi's tagged. But when added to the convo (L), me and Sufi was having, she didn't even say anything. Annoying perh. She keeps denying the shits she have done and blames other. Oh, better stop bitching here. Cause she has my url link. And I ain't a cyber bully like her going around spamming. Oooooooooooooops!

Ehhhhhhhhhhh, early morning got case meh? I just saw a police car at my house carpark. Kay sounds sooooooooo rawwwwr. Fcuk laaaaaa. Bye uh. Wanna sleep and gain my energy back. Feeling fcuking lethargic lah ):

Mimpi manis!

DhiyanAngello, wa rindu luuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Same goes to Nur Af-fyda(minah bunge) and Sepet Cho(zebra!)! Wa rindu lu uh broooooooooooooo! :D

1:22 AM Thursday, April 15, 2010

I've installed some stufffs to my lappy! Like finally.
Had mee kuah again for supper yesterday. Today had burger. :D

Chem tomorrow. -.-

Okayyyyyyy, today was first time encountering a problem with the damn deposit machine! Wanted to transfer 20 bucks to Yaya thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, the machine produced a receipt stating the transaction was unsuccessful! Annoying siaaaa. Then had to waste time to call the operator. And the money was retain! They would only transfer back to my account latest Fri morning. Pity Yaya. Sorry babe.

Okay, been meeting Dhiyana for days. :D

Soooooooooo now, Muhd Hazwan, where's my apology? :D :D

(Winkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkzzzzzzzzzz~~)

2:34 AM Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Back.

Me and sweetheart is back from somewhere. Had Mee Kuah for supper. Now back @ home. I think we've got this thing called moodswings. We're listening to the song for Haiti kids. Like lame and annoying cause this dude up here keeps saying this "Justin Bieber gayyyyyyyyy"

Okayyy, congrats to sweetheart cause he's starting work soon.

My last few nights was entertained by DhiyanAngello, sweetheart and sister and the cousin. Thanks to them, im learning nonsense now.

Okay, my mind's blank now. Feels like munching on something. Soooooooo, gonna ransack the kitchen. Yay, alhamdullilah, sweetheart baru ckp aku cute :D

Nights, mimpi manis. (:

9:39 PM Sunday, April 11, 2010

Will update once im back home!

Stay updated dudes/dudettes.

9:31 AM Thursday, April 8, 2010

New blog and new link.

I hope, it's going to be good start from now onwards. Relationship wise, things wasn't great, but thank God, we were able to pull through. Im sorry dude for causing troubles and always making your mood down. Still, I love you! :D

I appreciate sweetheart for everything he had given me. He has been tolerating my very bad anger management for months. It's never easy on him but he tries hard to be patience. He have always been blamed for the mistakes he didn't do. Im sorry for every conflict even over the littlest thing. Im sorry for always venting my anger on you. Im sorry for always nagging at you and making you pissed off. Im sorry for every mistake that happen to us up to today. Im really sorry. I thank you for giving me the countless time of being patience and I guess your patience are limited. I shouldn't be taking this for granted anymore. Im really very sorry for hurting you. I thank you for loving, taking care and pampering me with every of my needs. The text I receive early morning, really make my tears out because im touched and I feels sad for behaving this way to you. You know I don't meant all the harsh words I say to you. I realized you really love me. I realized you do treasure the status we have and what you did behind me lies with a reason. Everything was explained and I really hope you will never go back on your words. I never wanna see you cry so much for me. You're the first. The first to really make me feel much guilty doing you this way. Im sorry. No matter what, I love you sweetheart. No more heartbreaks please? Don't take back your words. Lastly, I really apologized from the bottom of my heart over everything.

Im so sad. Very sad. Mummy forget to leave me cash for ezlink. Atm card with sweetheart. And I have to skip school. I was so excited for today's lesson but ended up, things happen unexpectedly. I even bath already. I tried to wake sweetheart up but no respond ended up he paitao-ed work. I was halfway to sleeping then, WanieShorty went online. So ended up, im awake till now. Therefore, allowing me to create a new blog. Will be deactivating fb and msn soon. Same goes to sweetheart.

Anyway, Iqasasiow known as si sasuey, world mtf, kental, yp, and those lame descriptions among my friends really messed up with me. She told me to find her but ended up, saying find her at Jurong. A minahrep will always be in detailed whenever she has a fight. You're such a coward okay bitch? Claiming my sweetheart as your somebody. Tak dapat uh~ Beh nak cover-cover pantat. HAHA, MEREPEK.

Alright, I need some beauty sleep. Very tired. I love DhiyanAngello too okay? :D

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